Hi.
My name
is Corey and here is short summary of what the site/I am all about.
TREE HUGGING DIRT WORSHIPPING PAGAN
I am a Pagan. I call myself a Witch.
I follow a path of my own chosing and which is a bit ecclectic. You could call my path Shamanic Wicca.I truly love my faith.
It has brought me out of the difficult times in my life and it carries me through even now. Since following this path in earnest
I have been able to shed many of the troubles which have made my life a living hell at times.
I
am a very spiritual person, a mystic of sorts, I try to see the Divine in every little thing I encounter in life. I strive
to make my actions follow my beliefs as much as possible.
I
follow the Rede "An it Harm None, Do as Thou Wilt", as much as huimanly possible. I pride myself in being a man
of honour and integrity. I do not take these things lightly. Honesty, fairness, compassion are all things I cherish and strive
for. This being said I am not claiming to have acheived this perfection. I only claim to strive for it each and every day.
This will tell you then that I do not "curse" people nor do I
worship the devil. I am a peaceful, loving person.
I am learning
what I can about my faith, about healing, Ritual, meditation, Magick, Divination ect. I am far from accomplished in any of
these things. On the other hand the experiences of my life have given me more than my share of wisdom , now that I have opened
up to seeing the meanings behind the lessons I was given. I want to share my knowledge with others. I want to help.
When I was young I wanted to leave my mark on the world by either being
a famous discoverer, an astronaut, sceintist or generic hero. Now I know that my mark will be more subltle. I have nursed
a squirrel back to health, helped a student with his homework, given my seat to an elderly woman, given a kind word to someone
who was in need. Those little marks are what I will leave. When I die no one will remember my name. It will not be in history
books but I will have started a chain of good, a chain of life that will never end.
TRANSGENDER
For those of you who were looking for "she-males", "chicks with dicks"
or "MTFs" I am sorry to disappoint you. That is far from what I am. I am what is known as an FTM, a transman :
A female to male transsexual. This means that I was born a female but feel, emotionally , mentally etc. that I am a male.
I have been this way all my life and there was no choice involved in it. I am what I am. I still have a partially female
body because I do not have the money to afford SRS : sex reassignment surgery. I am on the hormone : testosterone (T) and
I have been living as a male for many years. I do not wish to be a female or treated as one: I am a man. Just consider me
a man born with a birth defect: a female body.
I am a gay transman. This distinction is what takes
some effort on behalf of those not familiar with these issues to comprehend. Wile my gender identity is male. I am sexually
attracted to males thus making me gay. Gender identity is who we are, sexual orientation is who we are attracted to. The two
are not bound together very tightly. Interestingly enough, in the early days mental health professionals believed that being
attracted to a person of the same biological sex was a fundamental part of being a transsexual. There were no gay trans people
back then. At least no "out" gay trans people. If you wanted them to take you seriously as a trans person you had
to make believe you were attracted to the "appropriate gender for the gender you were wanting to become. ... Confusing
isn't it.
Things are so very different today. I am glad for that. I am able to be myself more than ever. A
bit too late for many things in life but .... better late than never I guess.